[One shot] Him

Pyro checking in again! So, are you excited about Ori's upcoming story? I know I am. Ori haven't even let me read the draft yet! But in the meantime, you'll have to settle with me and my crappy one-shot. :P

HIM

Whenever I get this feeling in my tummy I know that he is near. Whenever I enter the classroom in the morning I would automatically look towards his seat. Whenever he speaks to me, I feel extraordinarily happy. I do all those things and now I know why. I like him.

I like the way one of his eyes would be smaller than the other eye when he smiles. I like the way he laughs at my sarcastic remarks. I like the way his forehead creases when he is deep in thought, trying to figure out a math problem. I could go on and on about what I like about him, but the thing I like best is the way his figure stands out in a room full of strangers. He makes me feel safe and that's something that looks cannot achieve.

I’ve only known him for three weeks. Perhaps some would tell me that that is too soon to really judge a person. But I seem to have known him forever and yet he continues to surprise me with things that I never thought he would do. Like the fact that he plays the piano – very well.

From the very first time our eyes met, I have liked him. Now, I just need to make him like me back. I tried to talk to him, to get to know him, to sit beside him during lunch, anything that would allow me his company. I smile when he look my way and try to make that delightful smile of his appear on his face numerous times throughout the day. I got his number on the second week and I’ve been texting him at the slightest possible opportunity. I fear however, that if I plague him too much, he’ll find me repulsive.

Well, the good thing is that he actually talks to me now and then. But the bad thing is that I’m pretty sure he thinks of me only as a friend. To him, I’m but one friend, amongst the many that he has. I would watch him as we walk down the corridor; he would always stop for one reason or another, for many of his friends are in different classes now and the only time they meet outside of his co-curriculum activity is during break. I know that it is wrong of me, but every time that happens I would feel a tinge of jealousy inside. If it was me standing in the corridor would he stop to greet me like that? Would he laugh and smile with that same carefree manner?

There are times when I’m almost sure that he likes me. Like when he looks right into my eyes as he talks to me, or when he text me a goodnight with a smiley face beside it, or even as he looks at me with a beautiful smile on his lips. Then there are times when I know that he only puts up with me because I constantly stick to his side. Like that afternoon, during the science fair. I hadn’t seen him all day and was eager to visit his booth, where his experiments were set up, but when I got there he was busy talking to another friend and barely said hi and bye before turning back to his conversation. I don’t know whether to continue smiling like he didn’t affect me at all, or break down and storm out of the hall. I ended up just getting as far away from him as I can.

Is this what people call a crush? Is this what people mean by liking a guy? If so I don’t really want to have a crush. Because when you have low self-esteem and absolutely no experience with the opposite gender like me, you’ll find that having a crush is a torment. A thousand questions would plague you 24/7 and you’ll be distracted from almost everything you do. You’ll think of him every moment and it’s almost like having a disease. You’ve been infected and the only medicine is him.

Later on as I sat in my bus, I thought about him. Perhaps it is better if we just remain friends. If I don’t hope for more, I’ll never be disappointed by his lack of motivation; instead I’ll be patient and wait for his every smile, his every laugh. And maybe someday... just maybe... this romance I seek would finally find me.

Ha as if! Tis truly easier said than done.

Fin

P.S : Certain parts of this one-shot is based on real life experiences.

That'll keep you entertained till next time then. Bye! XD

Love, Pyro.